My Life

Helppp

Help is what I need. I just want someone to tell me whether my latest crush....let's just call him RAJ....is right for me. I think he's the one. Let me get this straight....He's not at all perfect. There are certain things about him that scare me...like for e.g he gets mads pretty quickly...not very quickly either...but he does get mad. oh well. i'm willing to forego all that, because other things about him are absolutely perfect. We do have a lot in common...but i dont know. I dont know if I'm pursuing him for the right reasons.....I mean, he's perfect in the sense..my family would love him...he's from the same family background...speaks the language...the whole thing. There's nothing odd bout him...he'd fit perfectly within our family as well. But I dont know...am I crushing on him because of that....or there something else. I should know that eh ?

Man, i wish someone could just tell me ...."Yo, he's right for you" or "Yo, he's not the one..move on".

It's killing me. I hate this feeling.

I think his friend knows I have a crush on Raj....just the way he smiled at me, when I said, say my hi to Raj. not a biggie...i couldnt care.

I hate not being able to share this with a friend of mine, who knows Raj....that's partially because, if things dont work out, everything would be so awkward. If it's gonna get awkward, I only want it to get awkward between me and Raj...NOT...between us and her too. Dont wanna drag her into it.

I hate not knowing what he thinks of me.

I absolutely hate, not having any reason to just call him. I cant just call to say Hi. I find it very awkward and stupid. What are u supposed to say after. It's wierd too...coz I am friends with his roomie as well, so everytime I call Raj, roomie is there obviously, and I hv this guilty feeling that he knows what I'm upto....and I"m supposed to make small talk. I hate small talk, coz I cant do small talk.

Lot of things I hate eh ?

lol

I'm really not that negative in person :)

posted by Restless @ 1:31 PM