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Me ..... Again

So I plan to start writing this blog again.

Stay tuned :)

posted by Restless @ 1:13 PM 0 comments

Best Friend

I know what the problem is.....

Everyone has a somebody. Be it a best friend, a sister or a brother, as a fall-back. This is the person who will laugh at their jokes, be ready to go to a club or a movie with them, back them up in case an argument rises etc. You know what i'm saying.

But I do not have such a person.

My best friend is too busy with her boyfriend, or other friends or work or her life.
She will never laugh at my jokes.
She will never back me up in an argument with other friends. She'll always take their side.
She never wants to go for a movie even.
Never ever ready to listen to any problem I might have. Will shrug it off as a figment of my imagination.

I do all the above for her. I can tell from the way she sounds or acts, if she's having a bad day.

Like I told someone, I must have done something really bad to deserve such friends.

posted by Restless @ 7:43 AM 0 comments

So ?

So, is it always going to be like this ?

No guy is ever going to ask for my # ?
No guy is ever going to show any sort of interest ?
No guy is ever going to ask me out ?
No guy is ever going to notice me ?

Keep it simple. Tell me and I'll shutup.

posted by Restless @ 11:05 AM 2 comments

Shit

I feel like s.h.i.t.... since the last couple of days. dunno why. :(

Might get to see Mr. Raj tonite ;) so hopefully that'll cheer me up.

Jet li broke up with her bf...and i ran into her and another friend of mine in MY car, making out. Apparently I had passed out on the bed and these 2 decided to take my car for a spin. hmmmm
It was totally like a soap opera. I happened to search for them....and got worried coz it was quite late at nite so when I decided to check my car just in case, i see them. Didnt know what to say. I went back in the house, came back out, and knocked on the door. like what the hell was i thinking. anyways, i was pretty mad.....coz she never bothered to tell me...and even the new bf and me had been talking bout this girl that he liked (HER). Even he didnt bother to tell me. All the same, both knew about Raj. I had been so honest about raj and both had been hiding things from me(she...about her breakup. and he ..about the girl he likes).

anyways, to hell with these people. I've come to the conclusion that people suck & can and will let u down everytime. BUT , you just gotta do what you think is right. No point getting mad at them. They probably had their reasons.....right ?

lol my 3 cents in life.

waiting for my soap opera to begin :D

posted by Restless @ 1:33 PM 1 comments

Knowing...

"Knowing is better than Wondering !"

I heard that line on TV and it struck a note somewhere in me.

Yep, I'd rather "know" than "wonder".....everything :)

posted by Restless @ 10:42 AM 0 comments

Jealousy aint a bad thing !

Yeah. So i'm jealous. I'm jealous of my friend who has this new found love and I'm jealous of my cousin and his new found love.

I love them both dearly, but I'm jealous. So there. I said it.

Dont go there !

posted by Restless @ 1:41 PM 0 comments

Helppp

Help is what I need. I just want someone to tell me whether my latest crush....let's just call him RAJ....is right for me. I think he's the one. Let me get this straight....He's not at all perfect. There are certain things about him that scare me...like for e.g he gets mads pretty quickly...not very quickly either...but he does get mad. oh well. i'm willing to forego all that, because other things about him are absolutely perfect. We do have a lot in common...but i dont know. I dont know if I'm pursuing him for the right reasons.....I mean, he's perfect in the sense..my family would love him...he's from the same family background...speaks the language...the whole thing. There's nothing odd bout him...he'd fit perfectly within our family as well. But I dont know...am I crushing on him because of that....or there something else. I should know that eh ?

Man, i wish someone could just tell me ...."Yo, he's right for you" or "Yo, he's not the one..move on".

It's killing me. I hate this feeling.

I think his friend knows I have a crush on Raj....just the way he smiled at me, when I said, say my hi to Raj. not a biggie...i couldnt care.

I hate not being able to share this with a friend of mine, who knows Raj....that's partially because, if things dont work out, everything would be so awkward. If it's gonna get awkward, I only want it to get awkward between me and Raj...NOT...between us and her too. Dont wanna drag her into it.

I hate not knowing what he thinks of me.

I absolutely hate, not having any reason to just call him. I cant just call to say Hi. I find it very awkward and stupid. What are u supposed to say after. It's wierd too...coz I am friends with his roomie as well, so everytime I call Raj, roomie is there obviously, and I hv this guilty feeling that he knows what I'm upto....and I"m supposed to make small talk. I hate small talk, coz I cant do small talk.

Lot of things I hate eh ?

lol

I'm really not that negative in person :)

posted by Restless @ 1:31 PM 0 comments

Sorry...

I apologize for not writing since so long. It's not that I was busy or that I didnt have anything to write. Infact I have a lot. Just dont know where to start :s

posted by Restless @ 1:22 PM 0 comments

Hmmm

I think I'm beginning to like a "someone" :)
Going to take it REAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYY SLOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWW this time. We are friends at the moment, and I would hate to have that destroyed.
Besides, I don't know him much to reveal my feelings towards him.
So, will keep y'all updated ;)

posted by Restless @ 11:50 AM 0 comments